November 4th, 2017


the balance between that feeling of inadequacy and that of being taken for a fool...

I do get big bouts of Impostor Syndrome. I'm never quite sure I know what I'm doing well enough and am painfully aware of where I fall short.

Until, that is, the moment inevitable when someone contacts me wanting me to play for them for free ('you'll get lots of exposure', they say; 'you can die of exposure', says I) or, as just happened, somebody from a tutors' agency (must be, by their wording) sends me a message with offer of teaching work with lots of conditions and paying me half what I normally charge. Go find somebody else -there' s plenty of those, alas.

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